Just, a thought. At 6 in the morning. Ah, honesty, We Meet Again.

Janice: Sweetie, you should not have to settle for just half my heart.

Chandler: I'll settle for half your heart! I'll settle for a quarter of your heart! I will settle for a little....a tiny...a ventricle.

Everybody's A Stranger, But I Guess That's The Danger In Going My Own Way.

It's interesting how the realities we live may not be that real after all.

I've been staying at home a lot recently,
He calls it camping,
She says it's being anti social and lonely,
They seem to think that I feel lonely,
When, I'm really quite content.

There are many seasons in one's life.
And sometimes I need a little alone time,
To think,
To reason,
And to study,
Believe it or not.

It's not that I'm a loner.
Au contraire,
I actually love human companionship,
Honest companionship that is.

But I've got good friends.
And I mean it.
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Been listening to plenty of Dashboard Confessionals recently.

Chris Carabba - Hands Down


My heart is yours to fill or burst
To break or bury
Or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer

The words are hushed
Let's not get busted
Just lay entwined here
Undiscovered

Safe in here from
All those stupid questions
"Hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb
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On a brighter note,

For the first time,

We,

The sem 1 futsal team felt good about how we played in the league.

The joy and euphoria of playing a great game,

That feeling of belief in yourself.

I hope you find that feeling for yourself.

Jon.

“Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's ok though, because I've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. so when I meet someone who's an 8-color type.. I'm like, "hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "oh, you mean purple!" and she goes off on her purple thing, and I'm like, "no - I want magenta!"” - John Clayton Mayer

L'amour Vrai.

Isn't it amusing?

How everyone searches and waits in vain for that perfect person?

Well maybe that "perfect" isn't that far away?

Maybe it's not about searching for the perfect person,

Maybe it's about being the right person,

And hoping, against all odds, that's she'll be the right one.

Forget high school.

We were idiots back then.

I'm not talking about some Hollywood, roman candle fireworks, hot pink, toes curled, passionate type of love.

I'm referring to the type of love between the old couple you see in the park.

The type that lasts.

The "I've got your back anytime" type of love.

What is love then?

In it's simplest form,

Love is patient,

Love is kind,

It does not envy,

It does not boast,

It is not proud,

It does not dishonor others,

It is not self seeking,

It does not anger easily,

It is forgiving,

It protects,

It trusts,

It hopes,

It perseveres.

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It's been a pretty tiring few days.

At least the water supply is back.

The IMU futsal league starts in an hour.

And for once in my live,

I'm not enthusiastic about a ball game.

I need rest.

Jon.

When you're in love you never really know whether your elation comes from the qualities of the one you love, or if it attributes them to her; whether the light which surrounds her like a halo comes from you, from her, or from the meeting of your sparks.
Natalie Clifford Barney

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On another note,

This song is amazing.

Been raping the replay button endlessly.

God Damn You're Beautiful - Chester See

I can't find the words to explain,
Just how much you got me going insane.
When you speak to me sometimes we fight,
Oh I studder my words i say nevermind.
'Cause even when you just walk by,
Well I look around to seem occupied.
'Cause i'm trying so hard to hide,
Yeah, All these feelings inside.

Who Says.

IMU.

2 months ago I never expected to be here.

Never expected to do the things I've done.

Never expected to meet the people I've met.

And yet, here I am, in this new home,

Still in disbelief at how fast life can change.

We as humans can make all our plans,

But life, the hormonal woman on a mood swing that she is,

Can throw a wrench into the pipes,

At any time.

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In short, in these 2 months that I've been here,

Things have been very interesting to say the least,

The people here that I've met are nothing short of amazing.

Studies wise, I'm coping decently, to say the least.

A new form of normality has taken precedence.

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On another note, I've decided to revive this blog.

I need an outlet for my thoughts.

It gets pented up at times.

Looks like you'll have to put up with me again.

Jon.

I don't believe you have to be better than everybody else. I believe you have to be better than you ever thought you could be.
Ken Venturi

The One With The New Year.

It's taken me a good 2 days to figure out what to post for this new year's blogpost.

Bear with me.

It just occurred to me that, maybe, just maybe, if a little more thought was put into all our new year resolutions, they might just perhaps, last.

Alot of times, when we randomly shoot off resolutions the moment the clock strikes 12 on that blessed day, what is it actually that we are actually making plans for? A typical resolution will involve alcohol, work, love, drinking, exercise etc. All of which, are great in their own. But then again, these are all the same things that we've been pushing ourselves to do throughout the year. And new year's day is just another date in the calender with which to procrastinate it to.

Let's take it up a notch.
I find myself wondering, what actually do I want out of this year.

Greatness.

Dictionary.com defines greatness as

1.

unusually or comparatively large in size or dimensions: Agreat fire destroyed nearly half the city.

2.

large in number; numerous: Great hordes of tourists descendon Europe each summer.

3.

unusual or considerable in degree, power, intensity, etc.:great pain.

4.

wonderful; first-rate; very good: We had a great time. That'sgreat!

5.

being such in an extreme or notable degree: great friends; agreat talker.

Allow me to draw your attention to number 3.
Unusual or considerable in degree, power, intensity, etc.

Even as I will be travelling to India for my studies, I'm going with my eyes and my heart wide open. Hopefully, with the grace of God, this will be a great year.

It is a very general "resolution", but as cliched as it is, I'm still young and there is a whole world out there for me to explore. It's time to start living the "Who Says"  attitude in life.


And it all starts with Africa in January. Heh.


So there, the all too customary new year's post.


And so, allow me to wish all of you readers, a happy and blessed new year.
All 5 of you at least.

Jon.

You have done what you could — some blunders and absurdities have crept in. Forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

Emerson