Strength.

I normally find myself to be quite a strong person.
Emotionally, and mentally.

However, the past few weeks have been nothing short of easy.

Knowing that all I can do is to be patient.
Knowing that I can try as hard as I can and still fail.

It's certainly been one of the hardest periods of my life.

I've been getting along well mostly.

But,
It all fell apart.
As I was talking to my mum,
And she asked her normal "How's things?"
I lost it.
A verbal diarrhea of epic proportions.
I totally broke down.

I've come to realise,
That I don't always have to be strong,
I don't always have to be ok,
I don't always have to carry too many burdens.
It's ok to give in,
It's ok to be scared.

I thank God for good friends.
I thank God for an amazing family.
I thank God.

Jon.

It is the nature of the strong heart, that like the palm tree it strives ever upwards when it is most burdened. - Phillip Sidney

The problem with emotions.

After talking to a friend,
About making decisions when it comes to love,
It suddenly occurred to me that,

That,
The reason why it's so hard,
To make logical decisions,
When it comes to love,
Is because emotions and logic,
Don't make a fine mix.

This may not sound like a great revelation,
But this opens a lot of avenues,
To understanding my past mistakes,
And to making better decisions in the future.

Jon.

“Love is not the absence of logic
but logic examined and recalculated
heated and curved to fit
inside the contours of the heart” 
― Tammara Webber

我对你的感情. 但它是不可能的.

I don't know.
This cavalier act must come to an end.
A farce can only go so far.

It's not the future that I fear.
It's the consequences.

I've always trusted my heart's decisions,
Knowing that if things go wrong,
It won't be all that wrong,
Because lessons can be learned.
But can some lessons be too big to learn?

Pah.

Jon.

Faith means living with uncertainty - feeling your way through life, letting your heart guide you like a lantern in the dark.
Dan Millman

Of breves and emotions.

I've come to the realising that alot of the best music written,
Has two major components,
The right melodies,
And,
The perfect lyrics.

Yes, it's corny,
But hear me out,

Music,
Like any other art,
Is an expression of human emotion.

Honest emotions.

The right melodies come from deep inside,
You know when the melody that you hear is "good",
That it conveys the artist's feelings,
What he/she sees, hears, feels, is going through.
The same goes for lyrics.

I have always had an amazing respect for John Mayer as a musician,
His music isn't the most complicated technically,
It's simple to be honest,
So are his lyrics.
It's just that, in it's simplicity,
It's beauty is magnified by it's bravery.

Do you get me?
I don't.
I just, know.

“People want to see musicians sing things that come from their own mind and own heart in real time, responding to the moment for them.” Mayer.

Jon.